...and "It's not right."

Others are bad about the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, and I get the blame like it's from her sometimes, for her problems, extraordinary ones.

I specifically said my problem was with my environment, but they just go say it's the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, whoever does this or thinks this etc.  Also keeps coming up! that ... people use her against me, "See, she's stimulated?  I'm better than you!" or something...

The people monitoring me in private... they won't "own" their corniness and it's getting me in trouble to feel anything that's not all smiles regarding what I get from others in private, what I have to deal with!

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on that post

EDIT: I wasn't really pointing my finger at any one person and in my mind didn't mean it necessarily against anyone.

How can you justify my life since the promises made were broken in 2005?

I've felt miserable physically.

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on a past post today

EDIT: Using symbolism like "I don't wanna see their sorry face" is actually not a negative concoction and becomes necessary. There could be "Christian" or moral reasons for saying this. Moreover, the phrase "in and of itself" is not negative. Americans just make it that way. They used to curse all the time. I was just saying it in quotes to show I don't mean it in a bad way for sure maybe and to say something, not start a fight. I try not to use these things often, but maybe "it just goes to show you" Americans are overly negative, assuming, and accusing.

So, it lingered on that someone younger thinks they got the better of me, like most people, thinking they moved to the next level.

I know it really pisses me off...

...like clockwork, I got the message with them being reserved, quiet, and sitting there strangely silent and already it was true the people of Cleveland knew.

In talking to the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" via private messages maybe like they did with me with like they changed their mind, they're just being animals without control, this wasn't a good experience neither.

I can feel them just sitting there, acting "stupid" because people are racist against Italians.

They just keep doing stuff after I post like it's there to make things not work out.  It's like "I don't wanna see their sorry face."  I had a life to live.  Well, they are acting like younger people are gonna do this when they die.  Why are they using this as a landmark?

EDIT: Using symbolism like "I don't wanna see their sorry face" is actually not a negative concoction and becomes necessary. There could be "Christian" or moral reasons for saying this. Moreover, the phrase "in and of itself" is not negative. Americans just make it that way. They used to curse all the time. I was just saying it in quotes to show I don't mean it in a bad way for sure maybe and to say something, not start a fight. I try not to use these things often, but maybe "it just goes to show you" Americans are overly negative, assuming, and accusing.

EDIT: I wasn't really pointing my finger at any one person and in my mind didn't mean it necessarily against anyone.

Ellen DeGeneres relayed a thought that if the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is good then that means I lose her and she gets it.

So, I'm betting she's having her "moments."  Who did this, if everyone says, "It wasn't me?"

 ...And it's like maybe it's not okay for me and that's okay.

They're always taking away the fruit, ruining the goal.

I have much of the world up against me, no MySpace.

It "sucks" with them, ruining my internet experience by loading the page in ways that send messages that distract me and are subsequently denied. It also sucks when I'm not online and hear cars outside talking for them etc. and the little noises in my home, wherever I lived.

I know another excuse, there were other noises, I believe, that hurt me in my ear and I couldn't think in college already and I flunked. I did get my grades withdrawn, but my mom did it. Here I am panicking having to go to work without a car...! They don't do anything about it, they're "helpless."

I bet those people monitoring me in private are also talking to the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, in a funny way like it's about her and I have suffered under this for 17 years. I was supposed to get out of this, like it was an attempt to get away from my dad being mean and having problems with me. Instead, this.