They destroy my life if I take out anger physically or a little vocally in private.

They won't stop trying to give me funny feelings and acting uncomfortable, and it made me feel mad and I felt like I was looked at.

They are messing with me and the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, staring me down until I feel something certain and putting the lady's life on the line and saying her death is because of it.

I have to get a job, and I didn't feel like getting out of bed for it!

They keep acting like there's something wrong with me, these days.

They don't seem to get how much they ruined my life and how "stupid" they are about me.

They have been at this too long and want to drop getting out of it.

They keep acting uncomfortable, like well you did something and since you're shit and believe you should be punished give in to me. I'm an adult and I was just upset and hit my bed, etc.

The people monitoring me in private might think they got the better of me like they pretended to be my grandma.

How selfish and inattentive intellectually can what they say about my grandma be? Oh, just take away the whole "relationship" with the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe she's supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, she's not ready because she released controlled physical anger in private at my "shit," the biggest so far.

They are having my grandma act big and bad and beside herself like she can take away the biggest things in my life if I show any physical anger in private.

They keep making fun of me and getting annoyingly involved in me.

They don't care if they ruined my life. They said so, like it "wasn't" a big thing.

They keep taking away big things to me in my life.

They keep ruining my life if I show any physical anger in private.

They keep acting like they can't say anything right, like they can just do anything to me, like it's because it's a weird kind of communicaiton.

They keep starting at me and saying I did something that means it's okay.

They said I can't meet the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, like I did something.

They are acting like they selected the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with to also monitor in private, maybe a little at first, like she has to stop with me if I do it and do it herself, and they don't want it to make sense to me. Everyone is beside themselves and I don't care for any of it.

The people monitoring me in private are wasting my life.

They keep saying my grandma is being stuck up like she's all that for having a higher percentage of German blood. They said I would not "get" anything and instead serve others socially and that my kids would be menial forms of that, like my life is laid out and somehow will fit in that way, with them monitoring me in private. I told myself it was untrue and the sat there and sorta said no!

Being Monitored in Private

They invaded my whole life.

My Heart

People are accusing me when I did nothing wrong all the time etc., and it doesn't make me smile.  Now, my heart just started hurting a bit.

"Happy-Go-Lucky"

You can expect the people monitoring me in private to "make a big deal of" things and turn it into my problem to handle.  Nah-ah!

"Feeling Sorry for" Themselves

Ohio sounds like a sick animal, always selfish, like Orlando was, like they have to have the latest down in the Late Baby Boomer lady form Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, and they act like it's a big problem for me they can't handle, like they're crying profusely/greatly about.  They totally crack up like it's their problem "it's the end of the world."  It's just to make me feel worse, indirectly.  How do I find a place where I don't hear cars all the time and people in the apartment being loud at the doors?

Wreck-less

They are getting more wreck-less.

They stunt big things, for silly superstitions as decided punishments.  They say certain people did it.