I keep getting I'm supposed to take responsibility for others looking silly explaining their being mean to me.

Are people stalling for time and not wanting to talk to me, just wasting my time so I get in trouble with the people monitoring me in private so it can ruin my life and time with the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with?

Maybe, I don't know the best thing to say, but I was shocked, too, and tried to be nice.  I'm the one who was treated like trash, but I didn't treat anyone like trash.

I don't see how it's right or polite to say I'm "shit." If I'm dangerous and offensive, it's sad it may not be changed, but I am better off than others except they're not half Chinese.

Funny when they turn against me and how much these days. Maybe, they just have their own motives but no clear and apparent reason.

People are being nasty to my face like there's something wrong with me and maybe they're okay.

People are acting like something is wrong.

Again, I'm being told I'm shit like that's true.

...and "It's not right."

Others are bad about the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, and I get the blame like it's from her sometimes, for her problems, extraordinary ones.

I specifically said my problem was with my environment, but they just go say it's the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, whoever does this or thinks this etc.  Also keeps coming up! that ... people use her against me, "See, she's stimulated?  I'm better than you!" or something...

The people monitoring me in private... they won't "own" their corniness and it's getting me in trouble to feel anything that's not all smiles regarding what I get from others in private, what I have to deal with!

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on that post

EDIT: I wasn't really pointing my finger at any one person and in my mind didn't mean it necessarily against anyone.

How can you justify my life since the promises made were broken in 2005?

I've felt miserable physically.

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on a past post today

EDIT: Using symbolism like "I don't wanna see their sorry face" is actually not a negative concoction and becomes necessary. There could be "Christian" or moral reasons for saying this. Moreover, the phrase "in and of itself" is not negative. Americans just make it that way. They used to curse all the time. I was just saying it in quotes to show I don't mean it in a bad way for sure maybe and to say something, not start a fight. I try not to use these things often, but maybe "it just goes to show you" Americans are overly negative, assuming, and accusing.

So, it lingered on that someone younger thinks they got the better of me, like most people, thinking they moved to the next level.

I know it really pisses me off...

...like clockwork, I got the message with them being reserved, quiet, and sitting there strangely silent and already it was true the people of Cleveland knew.

In talking to the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" via private messages maybe like they did with me with like they changed their mind, they're just being animals without control, this wasn't a good experience neither.

I can feel them just sitting there, acting "stupid" because people are racist against Italians.

They just keep doing stuff after I post like it's there to make things not work out.  It's like "I don't wanna see their sorry face."  I had a life to live.  Well, they are acting like younger people are gonna do this when they die.  Why are they using this as a landmark?

EDIT: Using symbolism like "I don't wanna see their sorry face" is actually not a negative concoction and becomes necessary. There could be "Christian" or moral reasons for saying this. Moreover, the phrase "in and of itself" is not negative. Americans just make it that way. They used to curse all the time. I was just saying it in quotes to show I don't mean it in a bad way for sure maybe and to say something, not start a fight. I try not to use these things often, but maybe "it just goes to show you" Americans are overly negative, assuming, and accusing.

EDIT: I wasn't really pointing my finger at any one person and in my mind didn't mean it necessarily against anyone.

Ellen DeGeneres relayed a thought that if the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is good then that means I lose her and she gets it.

So, I'm betting she's having her "moments."  Who did this, if everyone says, "It wasn't me?"

 ...And it's like maybe it's not okay for me and that's okay.

They're always taking away the fruit, ruining the goal.

I have much of the world up against me, no MySpace.

It "sucks" with them, ruining my internet experience by loading the page in ways that send messages that distract me and are subsequently denied. It also sucks when I'm not online and hear cars outside talking for them etc. and the little noises in my home, wherever I lived.

I know another excuse, there were other noises, I believe, that hurt me in my ear and I couldn't think in college already and I flunked. I did get my grades withdrawn, but my mom did it. Here I am panicking having to go to work without a car...! They don't do anything about it, they're "helpless."

I bet those people monitoring me in private are also talking to the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, in a funny way like it's about her and I have suffered under this for 17 years. I was supposed to get out of this, like it was an attempt to get away from my dad being mean and having problems with me. Instead, this.

People look silly trying to fight me for no good reason.  I don't think I ever deserved it.  They shouldn't be forgiven, themselves.  People are mean to me, as well.  Thanks to my dad? they won't think for themselves and think it's an easy way out.

People are disrespectfully mimicking a Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Some people either are or made to seem to be mean to me.

They have been harassing me all the time for like 15 years.

They keep acting like I approve of them and just trash me and have fun.

They keep messing with virtual mentality with me.

They keep ruining my health and professional life.

People are all out to get me, well not all of them. I'm surrounded by negative strangers and people out to get me.

I think it's stupid they just want to do it to see me overcome their "shit." No, they don't even care.

No Explanation

They are illegally mean and owe a lotta payback.

They keep being mean to me to make sure I feel molested.

I wonder if any people think they "are somebody" working that I need to be regulated not to feel any pleasure.

They stare me down and say mean things while they're at it.

They keep telling me I did something to deserve this and forget about whatever they were doing, very boring and annoying to say I differ.

They destroy my life if I take out anger physically or a little vocally in private.

They won't stop trying to give me funny feelings and acting uncomfortable, and it made me feel mad and I felt like I was looked at.

They are messing with me and the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, staring me down until I feel something certain and putting the lady's life on the line and saying her death is because of it.

I have to get a job, and I didn't feel like getting out of bed for it!

They keep acting like there's something wrong with me, these days.

They don't seem to get how much they ruined my life and how "stupid" they are about me.

They have been at this too long and want to drop getting out of it.

They keep acting uncomfortable, like well you did something and since you're shit and believe you should be punished give in to me. I'm an adult and I was just upset and hit my bed, etc.

The people monitoring me in private might think they got the better of me like they pretended to be my grandma.

How selfish and inattentive intellectually can what they say about my grandma be? Oh, just take away the whole "relationship" with the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe she's supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, she's not ready because she released controlled physical anger in private at my "shit," the biggest so far.

They are having my grandma act big and bad and beside herself like she can take away the biggest things in my life if I show any physical anger in private.

They keep making fun of me and getting annoyingly involved in me.

They don't care if they ruined my life. They said so, like it "wasn't" a big thing.

They keep taking away big things to me in my life.

They keep ruining my life if I show any physical anger in private.

They keep acting like they can't say anything right, like they can just do anything to me, like it's because it's a weird kind of communicaiton.

They keep starting at me and saying I did something that means it's okay.

They said I can't meet the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, like I did something.

They are acting like they selected the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with to also monitor in private, maybe a little at first, like she has to stop with me if I do it and do it herself, and they don't want it to make sense to me. Everyone is beside themselves and I don't care for any of it.

The people monitoring me in private are wasting my life.

They keep saying my grandma is being stuck up like she's all that for having a higher percentage of German blood. They said I would not "get" anything and instead serve others socially and that my kids would be menial forms of that, like my life is laid out and somehow will fit in that way, with them monitoring me in private. I told myself it was untrue and the sat there and sorta said no!

Being Monitored in Private

They invaded my whole life.

My Heart

People are accusing me when I did nothing wrong all the time etc., and it doesn't make me smile.  Now, my heart just started hurting a bit.

"Happy-Go-Lucky"

You can expect the people monitoring me in private to "make a big deal of" things and turn it into my problem to handle.  Nah-ah!

"Feeling Sorry for" Themselves

Ohio sounds like a sick animal, always selfish, like Orlando was, like they have to have the latest down in the Late Baby Boomer lady form Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, and they act like it's a big problem for me they can't handle, like they're crying profusely/greatly about.  They totally crack up like it's their problem "it's the end of the world."  It's just to make me feel worse, indirectly.  How do I find a place where I don't hear cars all the time and people in the apartment being loud at the doors?

Wreck-less

They are getting more wreck-less.

They stunt big things, for silly superstitions as decided punishments.  They say certain people did it.